Point Of Realization

Ruthless, Reckless
Even made a check-list
Brackets, not many guys can have this
Lifestyle that I choose to live
9 girls to one 1 guy? Something's gotta give
Someone's gotta know! But they ALL did
Easier for him to sit and chill
All in all, the part that was too real
Was that the ones who gave him the least
Were the ones with whom he wanted to be
Even realer than that
The ones who started talkin to other cats
Were the ones he kept on callin back
Now the problem I have with that
Is only that it's not fair...
Like "You can't take what you dish out" type unfair
I declare, I'm too through with the options given me
I felt that many women in the hand
Would offset the burdens of the heart
What I failed to understand
Was how much more that would rip me apart
But I digress, even though to my homies I'm the best
I feel as though I'll never have one chick who can put my heart & soul at rest

The Definition Of Being Real

Sometimes "Too Soon"
Sometimes "Too Late"
All this bad timing is like a dead battery in a watch that's brand new
Pointless, lead-less pencil
"I knew how I felt all along still
I never felt the need to tell you until now"
A Phrase that has been heard and said by many
That will be forever responded to with "Wow"
How on Earth can people be so driven
By Emotion, yet words that need to be said aren't given
A chance to blossom or to grow wings and fly
Like every time "I Love You" isn't said
A weary heart begins to die
Or When "I Miss You" isn't mentioned
defeated looks are given
All we need to do is listen
To our Heart's Mind
and Put our Pride Aside
It's Nothing wrong with saying how you truly feel
Actually, that's the best definition of "Being Real"

Trust Me

As I sit here chillin
Laid up in my bed
A hundred million thoughts
Runnin laps in my head
75% are pertaining to you
The other 25 is minor stuff I go through
And in the end,
you're what's puts me past that 25
Safe to say life without you, wouldn't be too alive
And I strive everyday to be a better man
To have a solid plan
To follow Gods commands
And everyday something new jumps in my way
Causin you to leave when I need you to stay
I yearn for you in every feasible way
You just cant see it
Love for you, my heart bleeds it
Like a fiend I need to be dealt my fix of you
Get higher than life's blue skies off you
Create my smiles from being blue
And I'll do all the same for you
All I ask is if you'd take my hand
Accept me as your man
I promise you more days of Pure Happiness
Than there are grains of sand
Trust Me...

Torn

And So It Seems
That without remorse or tricks up my sleeves
I could manipulate any woman to give the one thing she needs
Not even by secular means
Or through selling dreams
But somehow all these girls seems to be fine with giving their hearts to me
But what you DON'T see?
Is how lost a soul I've come to be
I don't know how to treat love anymore
I can turn a perfect relationship into a morbid war
Simply from being bored
The Fault is never on the woman
I'm just not good at enjoying commitment to imperfection
Being fully aware that no one is perfect because I learned that lesson
I just have the habit of losing interest with women off the simplest flaw
Once left a girl because her sex life was slaw...
Mind you, she had everything else on 10
Book Smart, Long Hair, Beautiful Skin
Looks of a Goddess, Humility to match
Fun-loving personality that will be forever unmatched
But I left, stupid I know
But I just figured "Somewhere Over The Rainbow"
There'd be a girl just like her or maybe some where close
Who was better at satisfying me with no clothes
Can't have your cake and eat it too
Next girl I found was that one who proved
That she was to be my match in bed
Both tried our hardest to out last the other, but tied instead
and not tied with both being satisfied, just tired from trying
Definitely the best I'd had, not even lying
But She had an unstable mind
One minute she was cool, the next arguing and crying
Wouldn't cut it
Ended that on good terms and left from it
But all the girls I loved in the past still have a piece of my heart
And that simple fact there is tearing me apart
I feel like I have several pieces of unfinished business
I just might die a torn man with only God as my witness...

I'm Just Listening

When I'm down and out, she holds and consoles me
When I'm in under the influence she molds and controls me
My Shield when I'm Hype and in the Zone
My partner in crime when I'm chillin at home alone
My bad chick in shotgun when I cruise the city streets
She's one with my soul when we're in between the sheets
As I cry she swoops through with melodies from her sweet lips
And steals away my sadness with one silky sweet kiss
Feeds my memories when I'm in need of reminiscing
Feeds my ego when my swag got me glistening
Damn sure my life would end if she went missing
Forever together, you know her by "Music", but I'm just listening...

Losing You

You say you don't feel it
I don't see how
Said the Distance just killed it
First Thought = Wow
Like What?
I can't believe this!
Can't even READ this!
That statement could defeat any defense
I had in my arsenal of replies to beat it
I'm heated
Why is it that I push away everyone that I needed?
An innate ability to kick myself while I'm down and needing
Help from one who I can spark with
Not just physically, too easily that spark splits
leaving relationships based on sex with bad conversation
Which soon start fights that were lead by arguments
And you walk away from it stank-faced like "Who Farted?"
But it was destined to end soon after the kiss that started it
which brings me back to the topic I started with
You're leaving me basically because I'm not there to cuddle with
Hold you close to my heart while you sleep, keep you warm as we're snugglin
When you wake up I kiss you on the forehead and let you get your stretches in
then I remind you with a whisper its you that I'm in love with
You miss it so you're willing to let it go?
Never knew...
I thought the least of my worries would be me losing you...

Lesson Learned...

Change comes with time
Time heals all wounds
Meeting of the minds
but Mine's in it's own pool
Swimming freely in a sea of blue
All alone creeping along feeling blue
No one to connect with
Share things in new prospectives
Deep longing for that one
With an aura like the Sun
To come along and sing me a new song
Been sellin dreams for too long
Every night my heart is cold
from all day giving away my soul
Showing nonchalant affection out of being bored
and never really meaning it made me in to a whore
of the mind
Texting in rhymes to pass the time
knowing that I'd touch her heart every time
but now those hearts are no more
They all flew away after the storm
So I sit in the rubble around me, clutching on to half a heart
giving It my all
Knowing sooner or later it'll be my downfall
And the heart I cling to is only a half
because another young man's a variable in her math
and we struggle each day for a bigger percentage
In the end, we still wont know who the real winner is
And after playing with so many hearts I finally learned a lesson
A Broken Heart just isn't something you want to be blessed with...